Aly,
I wish I could help you, but I've never been in your situation, so I'm afraid I can't. I am 15, just for reference. I am interested in vampires, though I would never ask anyone to turn me. I hate Twilight. From what I've learned about real vampires, Twilight seems like a complete fake. If the books hadn't been from the library, I would've burned them, but I've already got too many fines on my card. Now I'll get back on topic. If you need anyone to talk to, I can listen pretty well (over the computer, anyway, because if it were a real meeting, you'd barely be able to get a word in edgewise)... so yeah.
Lucie.